September

Back to school is in the air, and even those of us beyond school age are feeling some kind of anticipation and expectation. We can put some of the blame on the media and advertising that seem to begin their “back to school” campaigns the day that school gets out in June. Add to this for me the many years in the education system as a teacher, an educator and a Mom. Most of all the feelings come from the memories of all those years as a student. I am sure that this is the case for many people.
I remember clearly those last days of summer vacation. There was a rush to enjoy those last days, to work hard at being lazy; to try to do those silly fun things that you said you were going to do in the summer. There was a bit of sadness as the evenings and mornings got cooler and the chances for going to “camp”, the beach or just to play diminished. My healthy, happy-go-lucky, playful little summer self was headed for change. School, routine and fall were on their way.
What a mixture of feelings that brought! I liked school, but…!
Anticipation and expectation: What class or classes would I be in? Who would be the teacher? What will I learn? Can I work hard and do really, really well this year? Can’t wait to see all of the kids again…but will they like me? Who will I play with? I promise to be on time every day.
Anticipation, expectation … and fear! It was a lot to handle and it really threw me off balance. Those first few weeks of September were really hard.
Years later, as an educator and parent, I remembered those feelings and tried to alleviate some of them for my students and my children. I realize that going through changes and feelings like this are necessary and help to build flexible and ambitious adults. I also realize that when children and students are supported, listened to and accepted during this time of change they learn more than just being flexible and ambitious. They learn how to be healthy and happy with themselves and where they are moving to in their life.

For me, I decided to use this ingrained feeling of anticipation and expectation. I take this time to stock up on books, pens, paints, office and school supplies (great prices at this time of year!) I rearrange/organize my desk, office space, work areas. I consider which creative ideas I am ready to pursue (and which ones from the past that I choose to finish or give up!) I listen to my inner voice and get ideas for classes and workshops to give as an educator and guide, and to take for my personal benefit. It is the beginning of the New Year for my education that never stops, my blossoming creativity, and above all my ever-opening intuition.
©Linda Zeppa www.intuwriting.com linda@intuwriting.com